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I'd tell her to speak up, tell her to shout out. Talk a bit louder, be a bit prouder. Tell her she's beautiful, wonderful, everything she doesn't see. I'm so sorry that it hasn't been easy to keep fighting for everything you deserve. Even when others decided to overlook you but you have been always more than enough girl. I want you to consider yourself equivalent to every person in the room (neither you know anything more nor anything less just as much as they know). Now that I started to prioritise myself i felt the way I never before. See people will come and go and it's not a big deal, you always gonna have you and that's something noteworthy to you. It took me a long time to chose to be kinder to myself, and when I say chose, I mean it takes every single ounce of my energy to believe in my inner self. when things get tough, it takes a lot of determination to pick yourself up and love yourself the way no one else will be vulnerable, identify y...
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belong to moments not people.

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Few days back on the way to apartment after a 4hrs of hectic practical examination ,I stopped by the small cafe .I saw that cafe many times before never visited as it was too small and gloomy...I ordered coffee for my head.. And after long time I was sitting there with myself.. reviewing all my year went by which was pretty good and there were so many dear diary moments. Now this 2022 rollercoaster ride ended but I can feel this pull of 2023 and  all its excitement....hehe.. so what I was thinking that -what 2022 was all about??!.. and here what I realised -  We spend our lives moving from one place to another, picking up stories, experiences,  thoughts, reactions, responses, roles, obligations, responsibilities, and as we go on this trail, we add some more, we drop some, and overall we become a sum total of what we have kept with ourselves all these years. And Sometimes I think in life the hardest thing to remember is it's worth it. No matter the struggle or ...
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I know

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Hey hey girl how are you? Okay first play 'let her go' (passenger). Well I never asked you this before. How are you really? Yesterday I saw you in mirror, you looked so tried.Everyday I saw you running from people, on upper staircase outside the library where you thought noone could find you,but I found, you hide yourself deep in your fictitious books hoping, pretending to be fine. I know how you feel when you try to have some conversations with people but they just scattered away, avoiding your presence. I know how you feel walking all alone through the corridors, I know. I know that noone waits for you after your classes so you just pretend to be 'im a lone wolf'.I know that in this world of hurricane you're just looking for soft breeze to settle.I know.I know you're fucking tired of sound of your own thoughts which always keeps you up at nights. I know. And here I really don't know what to tell you...just.. just trust the universe. And let rea...
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2022

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Oh god, is it just me or are you guys are always tired!  Yesterday I realised how harsh and cruel I sometimes am to myself, because that has always been my modus operandi to keep myself motivated and disciplined in a highly competitive world where I always wanted to be on the top of the game. And overtime this relationship that I had with me became so toxic, it suffocated me and mocked me when I failed, belittled me and sadly that became my truth. But now when I sit and ponder on all these months that went by, I can not help but feel like I have lived a decade worth of experience... Whole new environment, different shades of people, everyday new interactions, molding myself as per the situation but most importantly i understood that relying on myself for comfort and then fit in with others, not the other way round. Fact that I started running on my own and not waiting for others to make plans, and no matter how hard my days got, at college or in life, there is still one...
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