2022

Oh god, is it just me or are you guys are always tired! 

Yesterday I realised how harsh and cruel I sometimes am to myself, because that has always been my modus operandi to keep myself motivated and disciplined in a highly competitive world where I always wanted to be on the top of the game. And overtime this relationship that I had with me became so toxic, it suffocated me and mocked me when I failed, belittled me and sadly that became my truth.

But now when I sit and ponder on all these months that went by, I can not help but feel like I have lived a decade worth of experience...

Whole new environment, different shades of people, everyday new interactions, molding myself as per the situation but most importantly i understood that relying on myself for comfort and then fit in with others, not the other way round.

Fact that I started running on my own and not waiting for others to make plans, and no matter how hard my days got, at college or in life, there is still one thing that is mine to own! 

Guess what I am trying to say is, sometimes you need to say FUCK you to everyone that does not believe in you, and reaffirm every single morning that you are enough and deserving of good things in life, not expect that everyone owes you something or you owe something to everyone, have pockets of social interactions that bring you joy and growth and do not settle for anything less than respect and dignity, not from your peers not from yourself!!!